周末一块儿去

以前，你说：“周末一块儿走。”

Before, you said, “Let’s go together this weekend.”

后来，你不来，也不告诉我

After that, you did not come, and you did not tell me.

我还是让门一直开着

I still kept the door open.

我说这是爱——爱谁？

I said this was love—but love for whom?

爱你，还是爱以前的我们？

Love for you, or love for who we used to be?

门一直开着，你一直没有回来

The door stayed open; you still have not come back.

我说你以后会回来，你什么都没有说

I said you would come back later; you said nothing.

以前说要一块儿走，现在，还等的人是我

We used to say we would go together; now I am still the one waiting.

门一直开着——你不来，我为什么不走？

The door stayed open—you do not come; why do I not leave?

我说你忙，然后说你累

I said you were busy, then said you were tired.

还说你可能还没想好

I also said maybe you had not made up your mind yet.

你什么都没有说——

You said nothing—

怎么都是我说的？

How come all the talking was mine?

你三个月没有说话了

You have not spoken for three months.

我怎么还能听见“以后”？

How can I still hear “later”?

不来，还是还没来？

Are you not coming, or have you just not come yet?

多一个“还”，多等了一年

One more “yet”; one more year spent waiting.

今天等，明天等

I wait today; I wait tomorrow.

每个周末跟上个周末一样

Every weekend is the same as the last weekend.

你没有给我一分钟

You did not give me one minute.

我给了你多少个周末？

How many weekends did I give you?

门一直开着，你一直没有回来

The door stayed open; you still have not come back.

我说你以后会回来，你什么都没有说

I said you would come back later; you said nothing.

以前说要一块儿走，现在，还等的人是我

We used to say we would go together; now I am still the one waiting.

门一直开着——你不来，我为什么不走？

The door stayed open—you do not come; why do I not leave?

门是我开的

I opened the door.

一直开着，也是我要的

Keeping it open was also what I wanted.

我说，门开着，因为我等你回来

I said the door was open because I was waiting for you to come back.

其实，不愿意出去的是我

Actually, I was the one unwilling to go out.

不是你让我等

It was not you who made me wait.

你也没有说“等”

You did not say “wait,” either.

我给你的时间越来越多

The time I gave you kept growing.

给现在的自己，越来越少

What I gave my present self kept shrinking.

如果你真的回来的话

If you truly came back,

我们就会跟以前一样吗？

would we then be the same as before?

我一直等，直到今天终于明白：

I kept waiting until today, when I finally understood:

门开着，你也可能不回来

The door can stay open, and you still might not return.

我一直等，也可能不是爱

I kept waiting; that also might not be love.

可能因为我不想说：

Maybe it was because I did not want to say:

“我们完了。”

“We are over.”

我想要你回来？

Do I want you to come back?

还是想知道：我对你还重要吗？

Or do I want to know: do I still matter to you?

要你回来，是我们的事

Wanting you back is about us.

我还重要吗？是我自己的问题

Whether I still matter is my own question.

门一直开着，你一直没有回来

The door stayed open; you still have not come back.

我终于不说你以后会回来

I finally stopped saying you would come back later.

以前说要一块儿走，现在，还等的人是我

We used to say we would go together; now I am still the one waiting.

门一直开着——没有走的人，也是我

The door stayed open—the person who has not left is me too.

你没有说“还有以后”

You did not say, “There is still a future.”

我今天也不说

Today, I will not say it either.

今天只说今天：

Today I will speak only of today:

你没有回来

You did not come back.

我还没走

I have not left yet.